Coming Out Publicly About My Sobriety

Coming out publicly about my sobriety has changed my life. I wish I could tell you that I’d planned it out, that I gave it careful consideration, that I’d done it with a complete understanding of what I was getting into, but I can’t. That would be a lie.

I maintained another blog for several years that had almost no focus (surprise, I was a complete mess drinking all the time…) and one day, I just posted that I’d been sober and going to meetings as a way to get the word out to my friends. Over the next few weeks I posted a few more times and thought a lot about whether to keep these posts as part of the old blog or to start a new one. When I had the clarity that I had a lot to say about my journey, and that my journey would be life long, I knew it was time to split out these posts and start this blog.

In doing so I’ve made myself accountable. Most of my good friends, people in my local fellowship, as well as thousands of people around the world have read my posts, many with regularity. By writing about my journey, I’ve let the cat out of the bag and sometimes that’s what’s kept me from taking a drink.

There is also something highly cathartic about writing — I think that’s part of what many find so incredible about the fourth step. When we put our thoughts down on paper (or in bits and bytes as we do today) they stare back at us in black and white. We can’t escape them.

There have been times when I was a little freaked out about being so public about my sobriety. Last spring, while I was talking to my new company I was waiting for the shoe to drop that someone had found my blog. I don’t know what I expected to happen, but I feared that this might hinder my chances at a new job.

There have also been times when I’ve worried that my openness may impact my family— more specifically my son. I’ve coached his soccer team, and I’m about to step up to be a Den Leader for his Webelos den. I have worried that people will judge him because of me. Still, I share my story.

See, if people do judge me, I don’t know about it — and more importantly, I’ve received nothing but positive encouragement from people who know that I’ve made a decision to be sober. I think that this represents a turning point in people’s attitudes about recovery. There was a time when being in recovery may have meant a moral failing in the eyes of some people, but I think that the majority of people don’t see it that way anymore. I may be naive, but my experience hasn’t shown me the judgement that I once feared.

If anything, my openness has helped others. I’ve had several friends and acquaintances who’ve asked me about my sobriety. Several have decided that perhaps they might give this a go. Some who have explored it have remained sober, and others have not. I don’t judge anyone who has chosen not to remain sober after talking to me — I recognize that we all have our own path. What’s important to me is that they know that they can talk with me — that they can ask me questions and that I am in a place where I can offer my perspective.

That’s why it’s important for those of us in recovery to tell our stories. If nobody knows that we’re sober, they won’t know who to ask for help.

6 thoughts on “Coming Out Publicly About My Sobriety

  1. Reblogged this on I Am Many Things and commented:

    Personal anonymity can be such a controversial topic. For me, I think everyone who met me knew that I had a problem with drugs and alcohol, so why should I worry if they know that I’m clean and sober?

    Of course, that’s just my experience. I’ve never been in the corporate world or had any position where someone’s prejudice might affect my career.

    Today, for the most part, it just doesn’t come up. I don’t hide it, but I don’t have a sticker on my forehead saying “Recovering Alcoholic.”

    My biggest issue with anonymity was with my participation in the Society for Creative Anachronism. I love medieval reenactment, but was a little anxious about how prevalent alcohol was. A couple friends and I started a group called “The Empty Chalice,” a clean and sober household within the SCA (you can find us on Facebook).

    The point, much like in this reblogged post about ‘coming out in sobriety’ was to be a safe haven for others who may be seeking recovery. It’s also a place for people who just don’t like loud, drunken debauchery (not that there’s anything wrong with that).

    Bottom line for me: If you drink, go for it; it doesn’t bother me. If you want to stay sober, I will do anything I can to help.

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  2. This blog has been perfect timing for me this morning. I have a book coming out next year, and as part of that process, of course I have to own up to the whole alcohol thing. I’ve found that easing myself into it a little at a time has helped me, as opposed to somehow making it a newspaper headline. And like you, I’m more concerned in how it affects my family members. I love the fact that I don’t know what people are thinking, because what they think is none of my business.
    Thanks for a great post!

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