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It’s been difficult to keep up the gratitude posts over the last week. My heart is heavy and my monkey mind is in full gear. What happened on Jan 06, 2021 in Washington, DC is not supposed to happen in the United States. The President of the United States is not supposed to incite an angry mob to storm the Capitol building seeking to murder the Vice President and members of Congress while also over turning an election that has been certified by every state, the Presidents Lackey Lap Dog of an Attorney General who quit in an effort to save his own ass shortly before Christmas, and the US Supreme Court which has been filled with three justices by the President who lost the election. There are no doubts that the election was legitimate except in the minds of people who have lost their ability to reason.

I am trying. Trying to find things to be grateful about. And they are there. I’m grateful for the bike ride I got on Saturday. I’m grateful for the short outside visit with the family on Sunday. I am grateful for the time spent with my book club on Sunday afternoon. I’m grateful that we still have a marginally functioning democracy.

But I’m having trouble writing about these things. I’m having trouble concentrating on my work. I’m having difficulty not looking at every article that gets published about what happened last week. It is consuming. In the same way that 9/11 was consuming, except worse because we weren’t attacked by foreign terrorists — we were attacked by our own.

My son is fearful that other students will enact revenge on him because he supported Biden. It is not an unfounded fear. There are students who speak openly of their support for Trump and what happened at the Capitol. While I do not think this is a serious possibility and it would be easy to dismiss this as kids being kids we have a 25 year history of school shootings which stoke the fires of fear in my heart.

I reassure him that everything will be okay. That we will be okay. But secretly, I harbor my own fears. Fears that our country is falling apart. Fears there will be more violence. Living as close as I do to the US and Maryland Capitols, the most recent news of the FBI’s anticipated civil unrest at all 50 state capitols is disturbing.

It’s hard not to doomscroll right now.

2 comments on “It’s Hard Not To Doomscroll

  1. Gerard says:

    I want to believe the the silent majority will put the lid on this boiling pot.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Hearon (HD) says:

    I remember a few years ago doing a daily gratitude post and fairly quickly (fortunately) coming to the realization that the bottom line is that I am exceedingly fortunate and that I needed to try to realize that on a big picture scale (as opposed to searching for it in daily mundane things). I can be grateful in sum, but have zero such things on that list today and 25 tomorrow. It’s fluid. I applaud the effort and practice because it DOES serve to help us realize we are fortunate, but my only advice is to not pressure yourself to create the list. You are fortunate; that includes (like me) being “able” to fret and worry about current events without them having too much personal impact. Just food for thought.

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