Denial on Walking in Sober Boots

Don’t Fake It — You Might Not Make It

Tue, 06 Apr 2021 10:56:05 -0400

“This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man.”

— Polonius, Hamlet, Act 1, Scene III

Polonius’s advice to his son Laertes comes in the context of finances and very likely was received by an Elizabethan audience as the recommendation to take care of one’s self first and foremost — Polonius being one of the villains of the story. Just two lines earlier, Polonius advises, “Neither a borrower nor a lender be; For loan oft loses both itself and friend.”

August is the Cruelest Month, Mr. Eliot

Sat, 17 Aug 2019 09:33:24 -0400

It’s August. That’s part of it. I’m approaching four years of sobriety and I can feel the squirrels prancing around in my brain.

I didn’t recognize it at first. I knew that something was off, but it didn’t occur to me that this “offness” could be rooted in the fact that I’m nearing in on 1460 days without a drink. Actually 1461 because of leap year, but who’s counting?

Stopping for Sam

Mon, 03 Jun 2019 10:12:38 -0400

If you follow me on twitter on Instagram then you know I’ve transformed myself from a relatively sedentary guy to a relatively passionate runner. In a little over a year, I’ve gone from barely being able to run for 90 seconds to running between 10 and 15 miles per week. Running has become a form of self care for me and I love it. I’m grateful that my body continues to heal from the damage I did when I was drinking.

Denial, Empathy, & Acceptance: A Brief Journey on a Sunday Afternoon

Mon, 12 Dec 2016 13:56:00 -0500

I've got another confession to make I'm your fool Everyone's got their chains to break — Foo Fighters

I’ve got a confession to make. I have a real hard time with accepting things that are out of my control. Especially when it comes to my family. Especially, when it comes to my son.

My son can be challenging. He has a strong will and is very smart. He knows when something is bullshit and he usually calls it out. He’s also easily distracted. Homework, especially project work, is difficult for us. And it drives me batshit crazy to watch him take hours to do something that I think shouldn’t be a big deal.

My wife has told me for years that perhaps, just maybe, there’s some ADD/ADHD going on. And I’ve fought it. Fought it tooth and nail.

25 is not 30

Sat, 20 Jul 2013 17:00:29 -0400

Having a Laugh with Schwinger
Photo by Marvin Joseph

Update: This is a post from another blog. I migrated it to this blog because it’s an important part of my story. This was posted just over three years before I fully surrendered and accepted that I am an alcoholic.

Twenty-one

Tue, 16 Jul 2013 10:26:46 -0400

Bottles

An Important Call and an Update

Wed, 03 Jul 2013 08:32:46 -0400

4/30 Migraines

Fri, 28 Jun 2013 08:50:14 -0400

Original image: “Migraines” (not preserved in the archive).

Day 3 - Time On My Hands

Thu, 27 Jun 2013 11:28:18 -0400

Original image: “2 Days and Counting” (not preserved in the archive).

Circling the Drain -- Taking 30

Tue, 25 Jun 2013 11:12:41 -0400

Original image: “Countdown to 30 Days” (not preserved in the archive).